Nasira Jabeen
When I reflect how forgetful I stayed
To the Everlasting’s fixed call!
Which, upon arrival, hastened the withdrawal
Of the mortal boon most gracious
With anguish and remorse, my soul throbs
Eyes ooze salt o’er salt, yet senses numb for all
But that of loss, of your hands fall
From crowning this sinful head
I were but half mature, yet not wise
And life half the decade three mounted
As not till late learn you be a day departed
Ever to think your being as eternity eternal
Ever hoping your gold days benignly return
Yielding not to time’s pale cast on you
Never hearing steps at your heel of divine crew
For an oddity sole was your non-existence
Offering always a bower to the brim
Emptying the honey extracts of your mead
As accustomed appetite is to more feed
More fond of your quiet nectar grown
It never passed till last into emptiness
Oh, but slided how into fragility unaccepted
The source whose supply so trusted!
Till drained, and as collapsed nothingness
As into thousand fragments shatters the bower
That no skill could mend the scatters
Down mightily lied… helpless drop fast splatters
From these eyes, forced at last to resignation
Nine days and night into the unmoving descent
The thin veil across unseeing eyes of pallid yellow
Unveiling but on fields Sacred and Mellow
With visions white, the unearthly gaze now intimates
In conscience’ kind shift to this desolate site
To joy´s ultimate bound, your response did me send
When my finger breathed in the light hold of your hand
How then your eyes drank my ecstasy I witnessed!
But yet again waxes the looming grief
When the slowest becomes difficult swallow
When careful needy move makes sallow
Intolerably painful, the closed indifferent eyes
Had your intermittent deep vocal sigh
As streak bright bursting clouds bares the sky
Continued life! Had your silent lips come nigh
Forming for mere scraps of words spoken!
Subdued I… breathing Suraa… as you struggle
My trembling hand upon your fevered forehead
Like sand escapes from fist tightened to red
Your soul released… suddenly still, your chest lay…
